"The Beginning of the End"

So much for thinking that nothing could go wrong at the mansion. Clearly, I was wrong since Mama just tried to kill Julian! Not to mention the fact that Julian tried to kiss me again-yuck! Thankfully I have no memory of kissing him-or making love to him-in Bermuda. I certainly don't want him to kiss me now! Anyway, I wish there were some way to calm Mama down. Maybe now that the annulment papers have finally arrived, she might be less upset. Because my marriage to Julian will finally be over!

Thursday, October 18, 2001

"A Simple Plan"

Okay...I'm on my way to the mansion to see Julian. No matter what Whitney says, nothing is going to go wrong! It's going to be quite simple really. I'm just going to sneak into the library, tell Julian what I need, and then get out of there. The only thing I haven't really figured out is what to tell Ethan about where I got the money. Maybe I can say Luis got a bonus from work....no, then Luis would ask Ethan about it. Or I can say Mrs. Crane gave Mama a bonus...no, Mama would never want to lie. Oh, I know! I can say Julian felt bad about trying to kick Ivy out of the house, so he offered to help Ethan. Okay, that just might work. And it's only an itty-bitty white lie. After all, the money is coming from Julian, I'm just changing the reasons a little bit! Perfect-I have everything worked out!

Wednesday, October 17, 2001

"Every Dark Cloud..."

Yes! I can finally use this horrible situation to do something good! I didn't think anything positive could ever come out of my marriage to Julian, but I was wrong. In fact, I can do the best thing ever-I can help the man I love! I'm going to ask Julian for money to help Ethan get his own law firm off the ground. Luis has always told me you have to "make lemonade out of lemons" and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm going to take the worst experience of my life and use it to start a brand new future with Ethan!

Tuesday, October 16, 2001

"Confession"

That was a close one. It's getting harder and harder to keep the truth about my marriage to Julian from Ethan. Father Lonigan was close to telling Ethan everything. The thing is, I don't blame him. He's a man of God-it's his duty to be honest. I'm just saying that the more people know about this, the harder it is to keep the secret. Let's see who in Harmony knows everything at this point-Me, Julian, Whitney, Mama, Dr. Russell, and Father Lonigan. Is that it? I think so...but I'm definitely not happy that the list keeps growing. Although, as long as Ethan isn't on that list, everything will be okay!

Monday, October 15, 2001

"Not-so Wedded Bliss"

I don't know what to do. Ethan wants to get married right away and the truth is so do I, but I just can't...for obvious reasons. All I've ever wanted my whole life is to marry Ethan...and now I can't because of a stupid, stupid mistake I made on one night of my life. But that's not really the issue right now. The issue is that Ethan wants to get married ASAP, and I can't keep coming up with excuses. He's going to start thinking something is wrong. Of course, he'd be right-something is very, very wrong. I'm married to another man-the man he used to believe was his father! Oh Theresa, how are you going to get yourself out of this mess?