"Slip of the Tongue"

I didn't mean to tell Mama about marrying Julian-I really didn't. But once Mama started questioning me, it all just came out. Well, not all...she still doesn't know Julian and I slept together. I never want her to know that...it would absolutely destroy her! The thing is-I know it hurt Mama to hear about my marriage to Julian, but I feel better now that she knows. The truth is, I don't like hiding anything from her-especially something so big. And it feels right to know that I can turn to her for support in all of this. But right now, I have more important things to worry about than getting hugs and chicken soup! I have to convince Mama to never tell Luis or Ethan. If she did, the worst would be yet to come!

Thursday, October 4, 2001

"A Mother's Love"

I have to find Mama. I'm so glad she's here at the hospital. I can't wait to see her. Just seeing Mama's face always makes me feel better. Part of me wishes I could tell her about what happened with Mr. Crane-just so she could take me in her arms and comfort me. I need that so much right now. But I know I can't tell her. She would be absolutely devastated-and I just couldn't do that to her. Not to mention the fact that she would feel obligated to tell Luis...and then this would turn into an even bigger disaster than it is already! No, as much as I wish I could just confide in Mama, I know I can't. It's the best thing for everyone.

Wednesday, October 3, 2001

"Putting My Foot in my Mouth"

How could I be so stupid? Sometimes I even amaze myself at what comes out of my mouth! How could I have answered to the name "Mrs. Crane?" I mean...hello Theresa...anybody home?! It's a good thing I managed to talk my way out of that one. I can't even imagine what would have happened if the truth had come out right then and there-in front of Ethan and Luis, not to mention Gwen and Rebecca! It would have been like something out of "The Larry Winger Show!" Ethan and Luis would have pounced on Julian and tried to kill him! Rebecca would have pounced on me and tried to kill me! And Gwen would have watched the whole time laughing! What a nightmare...thank God it didn't come true!

Tuesday, October 2, 2001

"The Wedding of My Nightmares"

Everything is just getting crazier and crazier! I can't believe I was about to have a double wedding with Julian-the man I'm already married to! And then the wedding got interrupted because Mrs. Crane (well, I guess technically she's not Mrs. Crane anymore...I am) got struck by lightning! How could that have possibly happened? It's not like Ivy tends to parade around in thunderstorms in her Manolo Blahnik shoes and Prada pantsuits! Well, no matter how it happened, I pray that she's okay. Ethan would die if anything happened to her...especially now that Sheridan is gone. Well, I guess we're all headed back to Harmony now...and not a moment too soon!

Monday, October 1, 2001

"If You Don't Have Anything Nice to Say"

I don't usually like to speak badly about other people, but there's no other way to say this-Julian Crane is a pig! To actually suggest that we stay married-he must be completely out of his mind. There's no way I would have married him if I hadn't been drunk. And I'd have to be a lot more than drunk to stay married to him! Even if I weren't madly in love with Ethan, Julian is old enough to be my father. No wait-make that my grandfather! And the way he talks about us...um...sleeping together is disgusting! It's like he wants to do it again. Yuck! I guess I'm living proof that Julian is exactly what I've always heard he is!