"Top Five Worst Days of My Life"

5. Our engagement party-when Ethan learned he wasn't a Crane.
4. Seeing Miguel, Kay, and Charity trapped in the fires of hell.
3. My wedding day
2. Yesterday-marrying (and doing you-know-what with) Julian.
1. Today-learning that Ethan, Luis, Chad, and Sheridan might be gone forever!

Thursday, September 6, 2001

"Time Goes By"

A year ago, Ethan and I were in another life-and-death situation, but back then it was my life in danger. It was just a year ago that I had that terrible motorcycle accident and almost died. But Ethan saved my life, like the true hero he is. (I say "is" because I still refuse to believe that he's gone). It was when I was in the hospital that he gathered me in his arms, kissed me, and said, "I love you." He had finally realized his feelings for me and his love kept me alive. Dear God, don't let it be too late for my love to keep Ethan alive...

Wednesday, September 5, 2001

"Choose Your Own Adventure"

If only life were one of those "Choose Your Own Adventure" books. I used to love those when I was little. You'd get into a crazy situation and then there'd be two different options to choose from. You'd wind up in different circumstances depending on which option you chose. For instance, if you chose "A" you might wind up falling off a cliff and if you chose "B" you might wind up marrying the prince! Either way, you could always start over and do it all again! God, how I wish my life was one of those books right now. I'd go back to the part where I drank champagne with Julian and I'd have ginger ale instead! Better yet, I'd go back and never get on the plane down here. Then I wouldn't be in the nightmare I'm in now. Julian and I wouldn't be married. And most importantly, Ethan, Luis, Chad, and Sheridan would be safe and sound.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

"The Flame of Hope"

Noooo! Mr. Crane can't be right. They can't all be gone-Ethan, Luis, Chad, and Sheridan! How can I live without Ethan, the man I love? He's my everything-my happiness, my comfort, my friend, and my love! And Luis...he's more than just an older brother. He's always been like a father to me. And Sheridan's such an amazing person-she and Luis had just found happiness together. And Chad...oh God, Chad...Whitney had found first, and true, love with him. They would have found their way back together-I just know it. How can life possibly be this cruel? How can they all be gone? In my heart, I don't believe that they are...

Monday, September 3, 2001

"Calling All Miracles"

That settles it. The army captain said they didn't find the bodies of Ethan, Luis, and Chad...so I refuse to believe that they are dead. I know he says there's no way anyone could survive out there but I've seen enough miracles to know they are possible. If Sheridan can come back from the dead and Miguel, Charity, and Kay can be rescued from the fires of hell...then I have every faith that Ethan, Luis, Chad, and even Sheridan, can survive this. And I know that the love and prayers Whitney and I send out will help keep them alive...