"Love Conquers All"

No! There must be some mistake. The boat with Ethan, Luis, and Chad can't have gone under. They have to come back to us...they have to be alive. My love for Ethan is strong enough to conquer anything-including this storm. I won't accept this-I just won't!

Thursday, August 30, 2001

"Maybe They'll Melt?"

Just when I thought things couldn't get any scarier on this island...Rebecca and Gwen showed up! How did they even get here with the storm being as bad as it is? Well, I guess since they are both witches they probably just hopped on their broomsticks! But that's beside the point right about now. The fact is that this "situation" with Julian is complicated enough without throwing those two into the mix. The last thing I need is Rebecca and Gwen finding out the truth before I can tell Ethan for myself (because I have no doubts that he's alive and is going to come back to me)!

Wednesday, August 29, 2001

"The Proof is in the Pictures"

This has to be the worst day of my life. First waking up next to Julian...after marrying and having sex (yuck!) with him. Then Luis and Sheridan are in a horrible boat explosion and Sheridan could be dead. Now Ethan, Luis, and Chad are out in this dangerous storm looking for Sheridan. And to top everything off, the Justice of the Peace gave me these disgusting photos from my wedding to Julian! I swear, part of me was hoping this was all a nightmare and I would wake up...but now that I've seen these photos I know everything last night was definitely real. I wish I could just burn these photos and make everything go away...the wedding, the wedding night , and especially the danger out at sea. But photos or no photos, I can't erase what's happened.

Tuesday, August 28, 2001

"What Goes Around Comes Around?"

Could this really be all my fault? I've always believed in fate...and that everything happens for a reason. Could the boat explosion be my fault for doing something so terrible...and then lying about it? And that would mean that Ethan, Luis, and Chad being in danger out at sea right now is also my fault–because they would never be out there if the boat hadn't exploded. What if my horrible actions set all of this in motion? The crazy thing is that I came down here to Bermuda in order to start taking responsibility for my own actions‹I wanted to "right" the wrong I did in not telling Ethan the truth about his paternity. But instead, I've done just the opposite. I've done something even more terrible and I definitely didn't take responsibility for it. And now because of me, four people I love could die.

Monday, August 27, 2001

"Danger Zone"

Why does it seem like every time I turn around the lives of people I love are in danger? Not too long ago, Ethan, Luis, and Chad were battling the demons in the Bennett house...and now they're setting sail in this terrible storm to find Sheridan. Believe me, I want them to find Sheridan alive more than anything, but I also can't bear the thought of something happening to my brother, my good friend, and the man I love. I guess what I'm saying is that I wish such terrible things didn't have to happen all the time. I wish everyone I love could be safe and sound. But until Sheridan is found, I know that's too much to ask for...