"You Go Girl!"

Okay…I'm not going to let some run-in with a middle-aged man looking for a good time scare me away! I'm here for a reason-to convince Mr. Crane to take Ethan back into the Crane family and that's exactly what I'm going to do! This is probably the single most important thing I've ever done in my life. After all, if I can do this than Ethan will know how much I care about him. He'll know I'd do anything for him and I'll gain his trust back. All right…I don't have a minute to waste. It's time to gather up all of my courage and meet Mr. Crane face to face!

Thursday, August 2, 2001

"Dressed for Success?"

I hope I made the right decision with this dress. It's definitely a little on the…revealing side. I guess it's not that bad though--it's certainly not anything Jennifer Lopez would wear! I know having dinner with Mr. Crane is not exactly the best way to spend my time (Luis would have a heart attack if he knew!), but I definitely have a good reason. I have to get him to reinstate Ethan into the Crane family. I know I'll be able to do it-like Mama says…once I get something into my mind, nothing can stop me! So, I just have to keep his mind off the dress and on the business at hand…and then everything will be perfect.

Wednesday, August 1, 2001

"Dream a Little Dream"

Once I can convince Mr. Crane to take Ethan back into the Crane family, everything will be perfect…I just know it. He'll believe in me again and know that I would do anything in the world for him. And then, we can finally get married and live happily ever after. Maybe we'll even start a family right away…just like we've dreamed of. I can picture our beautiful baby now-Tara if it's a girl and Jack if it's a boy. Oh God, it would be like something out of a fairy tale. My dream has to come true-it just has to. And the only way to make it happen is to find Mr. Crane in Bermuda...

Tuesday, July 31, 2001

"Bermuda, Here I Come!"

Well, just a few minutes until I board the plane for Bermuda. This sure is different than the last time I was going to that beautiful island. I remember it like it was yesterday. Ethan and I were on the private Crane jet. It was the first time I'd ever taken an airplane before and I was a little nervous. (Okay, a lot)! But Ethan was so sweet and kind and gentle…and he made me feel so safe. I knew that when I was with him, nothing bad could happen. And once we were there, it was the most magical time of my life. Candlelight dinners…dancing under the stars…feeling the warm night air when we explored the island…it was heaven on earth. But this time it's totally different. I'm heading to Bermuda without Ethan. And even though it's the worst feeling in the world…I know I'm doing the right thing. I'm going to earn back Ethan's love-if it's the last thing I do!

Monday, July 30, 2001

"Whitney is a Girl's Best Friend"

I have to think of a place to go. I can't stay out here on the streets forever…but I just can't go back home and face all the terrible things that have happened. And I certainly can't go to Ethan…he probably never wants to see me again. (He definitely doesn't want to marry me-I heard him say that loud and clear). So that leaves only one place to go…Whitney's house. I know when everything else blows up in my life; I can always count on Whitney's love and support. Not to mention Whitney is the most rational, practical person I know-she'll help me decide what I'm going to do next. Of course, not that it really matters-because it's not like I have a future without Ethan. Okay, I've got to sneak into Whitney's room. I don't want anyone else to see me. I'm not ready to face the world...