"A Whole New World"

I know this might sound silly…but I feel different. Whoever would have thought that getting birth control for the very first time could make you feel…well, I don't know…just different. It's like I'm entering a new stage of my life-becoming a more responsible adult. I'm finally making decisions-important decisions-for myself. But enough serious talk…I can't believe that tomorrow night I'm going to make love to Ethan for the very first time! I don't think I've ever felt so many emotions jumbled together at the same time-excitement, nerves, anticipation, joy, and most importantly, love. I can hardly wait another minute for Ethan and I to become man and wife.

Thursday, June 28, 2001

"The Course of True Love"

I can't believe it's time to head to the church for the wedding rehearsal. This is feeling more and more real by the second. In just a little bit, Ethan and I will be standing at the altar together for practice…but tomorrow it will be the real thing! When I think back on everything Ethan and I have been through together, it's almost hard to believe we've made it to this day. Let's see, to make a long story short: I made a great first impression by spilling all kinds of junk all over him…then he thought I was his stalker…then I had to help him plan his wedding to Gwen…then I finally told him I loved him and he denied his feelings for me…then he finally admitted his love but had to break it to Gwen…then I thought he was using me…then we finally got together but Gwen attacked me…then we got engaged but disaster hit at our engagement party! Yikes…anyone who can get through all of that and still make it to the aisle is definitely destined to be together forever!

Wednesday, June 27, 2001

"Bliss"

What a wonderful day! It didn't really sink in that I'm getting married to the love of my life tomorrow…until I put on this gown! My God…it's so incredibly beautiful. It's everything I ever dreamed of in a wedding dress plus a thousand times more! You know what the strangest feeling in the world is? Getting your deepest wish fulfilled. And as I'm standing here in my wedding dress that's exactly how I feel…that I've gotten everything my heart has ever longed for. This is definitely what total and complete joy feels like.

Tuesday, June 26, 2001

"Fighting Fire With….LOVE!"

My God…I feel like I'm living an episode of "Dark Angel." Lookalike masks? Bugs in someone's home? I can't believe these things can exist in real life and not just in the movies or on TV! I guess it just goes to show the kind of power the Cranes have-they can use the most hi-tech methods in the world to get what they want! But all the Crane power in the world can't measure up to an even greater power-the power of true love. Ethan and I, and Luis and Sheridan have the amazing power of love on our sides…and no masks or bugs can possibly top that! she wasn't thinking clearly when she promised Simone she wouldn't see Chad anymore…that she really does want to keep seeing Chad. Maybe they can all look at this as a fresh start. Whitney and Chad can finally tell Simone the truth-that they're in love-and then they can all three move on with their lives. I think that would be the happiest ending of all!

Monday, June 25, 2001

"How Lovely to be a Woman!"

I can't believe that today is my final dress fitting before my wedding to Ethan! I have dreamed of this day for my entire life. I remember as a little girl, I used to take Mama's white sheets and wrap them around myself like a wedding gown. Then, I would stroll around the house as if I were walking down the aisle! Well, I don't need sheets anymore-now I'm going to have the real thing!